A life time is like a flash of lightening in the sky
rushing by like a torrent down the steep mountain. Gautama Buddha
It is done.
The message glowed in my palm.
The screen went dark.
The home full of light and memory
had passed neatly out of our hands.
Half a day’s drive north
we rose with the birds
to wash our faces
walk to our cushions
sit in stillness
as the sun came up.
Occupied with the throb
and slosh
of humans being,
minds alert
to the swell and surge
of experience,
we did not gulp or grasp,
but lifted our forks slowly
to savor what was on our plate.
Carrying our cups attentively
like offerings of fragrant brew
we got insights
we got bored
our necks ached
our necks really ached
our legs cramped
our minds sank.
Fur grew in our brains.
A cat named Torpor climbed up our bodies,
stretched herself across our shoulders, purring.
We stepped carefully along the drive,
the wooded path, the lawn.
When the bell startled
the still air and the finches flew,
we returned to sit
and then to walk
and sit again.
Up against our limits for the taste of God,
we picked up our hand held devices
just to check the time
and well, maybe, any messages
and then like hopeless junkies
shot up
with the news.
And, Lord, like Peter, (say it)
we slept.
We could not stay awake one hour
to watch our own suffering
let alone yours.
And the tall ones,
full of grace, like some exotic species,
came and moved among us.
We tried not to grasp
their beauty with our eyes
or covet their youth.
When they left too soon,
we, shoulders shaking, sobbed,
Oh no. Oh no.
Oh please don’t go.
But they with other roads
to travel and business
of their own stepped easy
over the threshold, saying
Let go. Let go.
And Mary said,
They have taken away my Lord,
and I do not know where they have laid him.
And the angel said, He is not here. He is risen.
And Jesus said, Don’t
cling to me.
And raccoon, rotund and tight with bloat,
lay on the side of the road
and said, See my insides are turned out.
And Coyote
trotting briskly across the clearing in bright midday
paused to look behind his shoulder
then disappeared into the woods.
A thick snake of ancient sorrow
rose up in us from miles below the surface
twisted, heaved us double with its force.
A wind whistling loneliness
whined and keened through all the spaces
in our bones.
every
thing
is going
back
and forth
across
a threshold
coming into existence
and going out of existence
while the dying rising one stands ever
on the brink
offering
a torn fragment of what is so
lost opportunities
things we have done we cannot change
our loved ones whose graves we want to tend
we gaze at the ragged piece of our existence
resting in his tattered palm
Jesus, how will this ever be enough
to satisfy our hunger,
or slake this sorrow?
Take. Eat, he says.
Be healed of thy affliction.
Thou, who gives and bears away,
grant us mercy
to take each moment
to our lips
and drink the cup you give
bitter, sweet.Give us,
O Sentry at the terminal,
where all things come and go,
the appetite and wit
to swallow and digest
entirely
what is so.
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You sweep people away like dreams that disappear. They are like grass that springs up in the morning. In the morning it blooms and flourishes, but by evening it is dry and withered. Psalm 90: 3-6 New Living Translation
This existence of ours is a transient as autumn clouds. To watch the birth and death of beings is like looking at the movements of a dance. A life time is like a flash of lightening in the sky rushing by like a torrent down the steep mountain. Gautama Buddha
Do not let your hearts be troubled. Do not let them be afraid. John 14:27
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