Silence is God’s first language. – John of the Cross
Spaces captivate me. The spaces between things – pauses, silences, rests between notes, empty rooms, expanses of prairie, moors, and highlands. A friend of mine from a large urban center once came to Kansas for a visit. I drove her out west on I70. The empty space terrified her. She much prefers the human made canyons of New York City, than places where the land itself dominates the environment and asserts its untamed, mysterious vitality.
In my work as a listener to the stories of others, I find the spaces between the words, the sudden silences, or the time a person takes for thinking to be where the treasures lie, where holiness abides.
I recently found a friend in the poet, Rilke. I drove south through the stunning space of the Flint Hills to Wichita to The Magnificat Center. This haven of hospitality and spiritual nurture hosted a retreat led by Mark Burrows, scholar of medieval Christianity. Mark had recently translated some of German poet, Rainer Maria Rilke’s early poems. Prayers of a Young Poet, Paraclete Press.
For an evening and a day Professor Burrows opened up Rilke’s poems like small packets of compressed holiness. Once set free by Burrows’ translation and our imagination, the poems awakened us to the immense and voluminous God this young poet had discovered. In the spring of 1899 God had wooed Rilke during the Russian Orthodox holy week services at Moscow’s Cathedral of the Dormition. By the end of our brief time together I felt the room we gathered in enveloped by presence and I, too, felt holiness pulsing in me.
The resonance of Rilke’s images and Mark Burrow’s masterful interpretation slowed me down, and ushered me into in the mystery of Rilke’s God. I was taken out beyond myself and the horrible cold I had brought with me to a more spacious place. The image Rilke used to express his desire to touch into God’s immensity was heath, the open, treeless landscape of moor and bog.
Whatever you yearn for, my soul, say it
Be heath, be heath, be wide.
. . . .
Be heath, be heath, be heath
Prayers of a Young Poet, translated by Mark Burrows, p 30.
What is it in us that allows God to meet us with fullness, depth, and beauty? The potential is always present. Love or loss of love may do this, preaching may do this, sacraments, art, music, nature, beauty, may do this. Yet we must offer the space, the openness, the inner heath or expanse of Kansas Flint Hills to become the altar for this dancing God.
As the psalmists, prophets and Jesus knew, poetry may offer such an altar for the sacrament of presence. Paul Valéry defined a poem as “a prolonged hesitation between sound and sense.” That is also not a bad definition for a parable. Parable and poem both dis-orient, surprise, stop us in our tracks, and expand our awareness beyond our previously known world.
Poetry invites, even demands that we hesitate, off balance, scratching our heads, to teeter between sound and sense. Most things which reveal Transcendence (that which is beyond our selves) require us to enter the unfamiliar and wait on the edge of not knowing, without having to rush in and fill the moment with a refutation, argument, praise, or anything to end the awkward, uncomfortable “dead” space. It seems to me that good art makes us hesitate and allows what we may perceive as dead to rise up before us. Surely good preaching, celebrating sacraments, and prayer ought to do the same.
Yet hesitation is seen as a flaw, a lack of confidence, or making someone have to wait. Thomas Merton wrote that we live in a time of no room, in which we are “obsessed with lack of time, lack of space, saving time, conquering space, projecting into time and space the anguish produced within [us] by the technological furies of size, volume, quantity, speed, number, price, acceleration.” Thomas Merton, A Book of Hours, ed. Kathleen Deignan, p 32
We live in a time of no room with no space for a soul’s edges to roll out, unconfined by agenda. Hemmed in by a culture which has convinced itself that time is a commodity, of which there is great scarcity, our souls become cramped, stunted, and deformed by the crushing weight of having to produce and fill every moment with sound and human activity.
Time is the sacred vessel of encounter with divine presence. Where else do we think it is going to happen, if not here, now in this moment? We put little, if any, space between and within the words we speak to one another. We have little available “random access memory” in our minds. Words pile upon words. Life is reduced to thirty second sound and image bites. Minds are crammed and obese with knowing, calendars booked solid, days filled with activity, and hearts full of oneself.
Who among us will be bold to hesitate, to linger in the land of uncertainty on the shore of wisdom? Who will offer shelter for silence to collect itself, curl up and hum to itself in the sun? Who will be heath?
What wonderful thoughts to slow me down as I contemplate preaching the Transfiguration this Sunday – that time/place that is a numinous moment up on the mountain – that time between time with Jesus, Moses, and Elijah. Also, really resonant with me as I prepare to enter a time of medical leave in which all time will be shaped so differently for me.
Thanks, friend, for taking the time to let me know.
Grateful to make space to share your awareness.
Thank you Alisa!
I’m about to begin volunteering at our local hospital’s inpatient psychiatric unit, providing an activity, as my job description calls it. I call it poetry therapy. I must remember to carry the sacred there with me, and be prepared, also, to encounter it there. In silence. I’ve been working so hard to assemble words, and to facilitate the utterance of more words, that I’ve overlooked the potential value of the gaps between them. Thank you for this lesson in awareness, and in listening to what is not said.
Thank you, Elizabeth. What a wonderful gift you are bringing. Your words remind of Annie Dillard. I recall her saying some wonderful things about “standing in the gaps.” Much peace. Much healing for all.
Tread Lightly –
So You hear the Silence
And Tend the Voiceless
For they are the most fragile
But they have the most to Share!